Reward

她让我知道了，我其实怕高怕死，也满勇敢地，因为我撑到最后，
在最高处欣赏了Paris的另一风貌。 这是勇敢的reward.
Eiffel Tower. 

A Late Quartet (2012)

从伦敦回墨尔本机上意外的收获。 

There was a scene that touched me a lot in the movie. Try to find it.
A boy quoting Ogden Nash's  "Old men" out loud on a subway train.

"People expect old men to die,
They do not really mourn old men.
Old men are different.
People look at them with eyes that wonder when ...
People watch with unshocked eyes;
But the old men know when an old man dies."

ai shang...

蕭敬騰  =) 

Depression

is like we fall down knowing that there is a hole.
You can see there is a hole but still you choose to fall down because lack of cultivation.

When you're down, what do you usually do?
Watch a movie, spending, eating or going for a holiday?
In fact, it is not about doing but stopping.

Some time ago ...

.... this was how I lived my life.
Thanks for reminding me on this, HS =) 

勇气

长大了，成熟后，做莫些决定好像更难了。
决定要顾及自己，也要考虑到他人。
在想还是安逸太久了，害怕改变， 然后拼命找借口。

然后的然后， 我才发现我是因为没勇气承担后果。
妥协再妥协的我,没发现虽然还在路上可是我离目标越来越远了.

现在，需要找回我的勇气。

Gimhana Sunday

“Don’t go to the temple just to ‘do’ something. Instead, go to ‘learn’ something.” 

“People like to ‘do’ things at the temple, such as performing rituals, see friends, talk, work... A whole life-time of ‘doing’ may not bring about any real transformation in the character of the doer. We only ‘grow’ through learning. So the next time you’re going to the temple, think this way, ‘I am going there to ‘learn’ something today.’ ” – (Excerpts from teachings on Gimhana Sunday.)

浮誇

作詞：樓南蔚
作曲：CY　Kong
演唱：林志炫

夜晚星空　你只看見最亮的那顆
人海中你崇拜　話題最多最紅的那個
誰不覬覦著要站在舞臺中央 光環只為我閃爍

散場後　落幕後　誰關心你想甚麼 誰在乎你做甚麼
誇張不是罪過　能滿足空洞乏味的生活
那窺探的眼那議論的口　消遣了每一次茶餘飯後

難道非要浮誇嗎　無謂是非與真假
拼排場包裝比身價　誰說真心話　誰說真心話
只要畫面夠驚訝　只要內容夠爆炸
一張嘴開出了天花　嬉笑怒罵
只能在夜裡鏡子前　偷偷講實話

你喜歡我　不喜歡我　是你的自由
我只是希望在某些時候　抓到你耳朵
為音樂夢想唱出第一個音符　從此就沒放棄過
主觀的　客觀的　旁觀的攔阻太多
好壞要自己承受
所以我要歌頌　讓情緒釋放在歌聲之中
選擇雖然多　好歌有幾首　能夠去感動人給些什麼

難道非要浮誇嗎　無謂是非與真假
拼排場包裝比身價　誰是大贏家　誰是大贏家
只要畫面夠驚訝　只要內容夠爆炸
一張嘴開出了天花　嬉笑怒罵
只能在夜裡鏡子前　偷偷講實話

幸運兒不是我　因為我選擇的路很難走
如果夠出色卻不能出頭　至少也做到沒第二個我

難道非要浮誇嗎　內心也曾很掙扎
一個人努力的時候　有誰看見嗎　有誰知道嗎
唱到思緒都融化　唱到聲音也沙啞
說是我著了魔也好　瘋了也罷
若不能揮灑　算甚麼歌唱的玩家

看著我正在為你發光
合不合胃口　都請欣然接受吧
下一刻要為你擦出火花
啊～

New mantra

Unknown is so prominent in life that's what make life wonderful as it's full of possibilities.

Upekkha

There is a problem only when there is a solution for it. If there is no solution for that problem then we have to learn to be equanimous. Sometimes, we have no choice but to see people suffer...

Wholeheartedly

If you're going to sweep, give it everything you've got.

Ajahn Chah

Ubah

All things I have been exposed to these few days is making me feel that there is an urge for UBAH. Then, I realize. the most immediate Ubah I can achieve is within myself.

So now it's the time for some reflections:
How can I ubah to become a better Malaysian? a better me?

见到了绿洲

从来没对政治这么关心过。
很无知的，从来不知道好的坏的政府可以影响这么多人的生活。
因为我是幸运的一个，得到了澳州政府奖学金，悠闲快乐的学习着。

以前总认为，受到不公平的待遇是理所当然的，因为我寄人篱下。
GE13 让我见到了绿洲。
重新认识了‘马来西亚’代表了什么。
应该扩越肤色，一起为更美好的一天努力。

谢谢站出来的人，让我成长也让我见到了绿洲。

我心从这里出发，有这个认知，大家都是马来西亚人。
马来西亚人，澳州人，英国人。。 都是人。
We are all one mankind.
这就是宗教里说的大爱吧。

Desmond said....

"Jangan sebab politik, Ahmad, Muthu dan Ah Seng tidak boleh melepak mamak bersama!"

This I have to bear in mind =)

明亮的话

要成熟是要有很多过程，而这个过程的第一步是改变现状。
加油了。

The legend of 1900

谢谢你令我遇见了他。 

"Sometimes that is just the way you have to do it, you go right back to the beginning."  -1900

That's why I have to remember how and why I began. 

"It was not what I saw that stopped me; it was what I did not see." -1900

Don't forget to see also what you do not see. 

"Land is a ship which is too big for me' -1900

I'll just be here. 

Lost focus

I was too busy counting the stars until I lost tracked of the moon.

No one ...

can stop a vibrant mind to shine.

Black and white

missing grey in my life.

“这一次我来马来西亚很感动。我们大部分人都相信，这个世界上有是非对错、有真理，公正必须得到伸张。但是大部分时候，这个世界的现实黑白不是那么分明，是非如此混淆，通常是灰色的。” 梁文道 

忙而不亂

“ Be busy without being disorganised, and weary without being dispirited. Be busy but happy, and tired but joyful. It is fine to be busy, just don’t let it get on your nerves.”

“ 忙而不亂，累而不疲。忙得快樂，累得歡喜。「忙」沒關係，不「煩」就好。” 

圣严

Ajahn Buddhadasa (1906 - 1993)

“ The lively physical activity and fresh complexions of young people is one kind of youth, while the youthfulness of the mind, heart, and spirit refers to a spiritual brightness, vigour, and serenity that comes with having more Dhamma. As the heat of our inner flames is subsiding, coolness can enter and envelop us. We feel increasingly refreshed, vibrant, and cheerful.”

Yes!!! I can be FOREVER yoUNg :D  

Looking for my dutch uncle...

... a person who gives me honest feedback;
who cares enough to tell me the tough-love things that i needed to know.

keep looking...
keep waiting... ...

不要愤怒

记住， 不要愤怒。
愤怒会降低你的智慧。
也不要恨自个儿的敌人，
因为仇恨会使你失去判断力。
与其恨自个儿的敌人，不如拿他为我所用。

曹操- 字孟德

难得糊涂

“我虽然心善，但我却不糊涂。
只是有时候不糊涂者，却不得不装糊涂啊。
这有演戏的，也要有看戏的啊."

子敬。

Verbal diarrhea

Are those people simply taking too much or I am losing my patience for listening??

Be a good OnE

Venerable Kirinde Sri Dhammananda (1918 - 2006)

" 'Doing good' is easy; but 'being good' is more difficult. Anyone can 'do good'; even corrupted individuals can occasionally do good deeds. But to 'be good' requires discipline, mindfulness, and constant effort.

The Buddha taught not just doing good, but being good."

开， 开， 开

心胸要阔。
视野要广。
这样才能容他，容你，容我， 容天下。

哈哈。
我不气，我也不记。
这就对了。

2013。

对的事，该做的事， 再多打击也不放弃。
好的信念， 再多考验也得坚持到底。

立春快乐。 信心满满，朝2013前进。

反观

想看淡人世间的人与物， 谈何容易？
说不容易，也不是做不到的。
循循渐进，总会有进展。
不试， 怎能说难与不行呢？
加油了。

最近，有幸成为事非的主角。
深深的体会到人言可畏这句话。
一句关心的问候，在不适时时出现，会弄巧反拙。
很多时候，问不是出于关心而是好奇心。
小心了。

要学会察颜观色，尽量不给身边人无谓的负担。
不确定时要学会沉默是最佳的支持。
记住了。

Perception

is also another impermanent thing so do not fear it.  =)

Hatred

Once, I wondered, how can one develop hatred towards another? Hatred, it's so extreme, strong and intense consuming lots of your energy.

Now, I know. It develops gradually, especially in a gentle person. From feeling annoy to dislike then strong rejection and finally hate.

Love

Love brings out the best of you and, sadly, also the worst of you.

More accurately,
Love without attachment brings out the best of you;
Love with attachment brings out the ugliest of you.

To Travelers ...

http://www.theage.com.au/travel/traveller-tips/mind-the-gap-20121207-2azsr.html

Getting a 28 degrees MasterCard would definitively smoothen your journey.  =)   

Wu Ti

谁愿意解释为了什么，一笑已经风云过 - Ee Yean

Conflicts happen the most in a domestic life, in a family, between husband and wife, parents and children, brothers and sisters and friends who live together.  - Ajahn Kalyano

Use money to add value in your life but don't allow it to become a snake to bite you in the end. - Nosh

Find a teacher, give in to him; don't let your stubbornness blocks you from learning. - Ajahn Mun

Nice Quotes AGAIN

At Mt. Dandenong

Past

Thing to remember today: Past bitter experience makes me who I am today.

Payoga

With effort, things change.

Insight...

Men stick to a woman because of her beauty but not her intelligence :-p

One is enough...

Everyone hears what you say; friends listen to what you say; best friend listen to what you don't say.

TrUe FRienD

Everyone needs a true friend;
one that you can show the real ugly self.

Be responsible for your action

"People ask me about what sacrifices I've made. I always answer: I've made no sacrifices, I've made choices." Au San Suu Kyi

...

Only those who love and lost know what bitter cost.

Optimist

To an optimist, reality always depend on how you see the world.

Happiness First...

If you accept a job, a relationship, or a lifestyle that you merely tolerate — but don’t appreciate — you’re putting other concerns ahead of your own happiness.

Social conditioning may have convinced you that sacrificing your happiness to maintain a certain bank balance, to send timely payments to corporations to which you’re indebted, or to pay for someone else’s needs and expenses is the proper way to live. Perhaps your parents played a role in this conditioning as well, teaching you the importance of being responsible and holding down stable employment.

If you do these things well, then according to this conditioning, you are successful. You’re doing what’s expected of you, and no one could fault you for that. But sooner or later you’ll come to realize that successfully paying the bills and satisfying other people’s needs, while depriving yourself of a happy life you’re truly passionate about, is no success at all. In fact, it is complete and utter failure.

If you’ve found yourself in this situation, then you’ve terribly misunderstood the game of life.

While you may have been convinced that these duties are important, the truth is that they’re of no particular importance to people with high self-esteem and a positive sense of self-worth. Such people do not care how much money you make, what kind of provider you are, or how long you’ve been married to the same person. They’re much more curious about something else: how you feel about yourself and the path you’re walking.

I have many friends who earn very little money, can’t or won’t hold down stable jobs, and have constantly churning relationship lives. And yet, if they are happy with themselves, I typically find them fascinating and valuable people to have in my life.

I also have friends who’ve been blessed by tremendous financial success, with brilliant, decades-spanning careers and deeply loving, committed relationships. If they too are happy with themselves, I find them just as fascinating and rewarding to connect with.

When, however, I connect with people who are responsibly doing their duty, but who haven’t yet cultivated a life of happiness, I can’t help but notice the sallow desperation in their eyes, the numbness with which they speak, and the damned-if-I-do-damned-if-I-don’t game of self-deception they play each day. They feel trapped and lost to the point where they label feelings like depression and frustration with words like “fine” and “okay.”

If you find yourself in such a situation, there is a way out, and it begins with finally acknowledging the truth to yourself and diving into the dark places where you think it may lead. Accept your situation as it is, and most importantly, accept how you feel about it. The reality is that the darkness you fear is really nothing to fear at all. Yes, you may face some challenges, but that is how you’ll grow.

Do you love and appreciate your work? Do you love and appreciate your relationships? Do you love and appreciate your lifestyle? What is the truth?

You cannot get unstuck so long as you remain in perpetual denial. No external rescue will appear. But there is indeed a path to freedom, and it lies on the other side of denial and self-deception — on the side of truth and acceptance.

What does happiness look like? Happiness is waking up feeling optimistic and expectant about the day you get to live. Happiness makes it hard to stay in bed once you awaken. A rich day full of new experiences and creative expression awaits you. It is an exciting thing to behold. Happiness is the stillness that exists within energy and movement.

When you are happy, you can still pay your bills on time, but you’ll make better choices about what bills are worth incurring. Some of your current bills and expenses might never have been created, had you been living a happy and inspired life to begin with. When you are happy, you can still support others if you wish, but this will be done because you truly want to do it, not because you feel obligated to do so. When you are happy, you can still enjoy a stable career, but you’ll produce significantly more value in less time because happiness inspires creativity and action, and creative action is a wellspring of opportunity — a wellspring which can, if so desired, produce abundant income for you.

Rest assured, your world will not explode simply because you’ve decided to make your own happiness a real priority. More likely, the response from the universe will be akin to a sighing, What took you so long?

When I’ve made decisions that were aligned with my own happiness first, I’ve heard the occasional (sometimes frequent) outcries of those objecting to my choices, but these objections invariably came from those who weren’t happy with their own choices. My decision was a painful reminder of that, and hence I can understand, empathize with, and forgive the momentary insanity on their part — the insanity which presumes that their wallowing in unhappiness could possibly persuade me to join them under any circumstances.

But far worse than the vocal objections of others are the simulated objections that exist only within your mind — the simulated fear of disapproval.

In all honesty which is more important to you: the approval of others, or your own happiness?

If you aren’t happy, you don’t approve of yourself, and hence no one of consequence can approve of you anyway. They will recognize plain as day that your priorities have produced a dismal and wretched failure of a life. If you place approval above your own happiness, you ultimately end up with neither. You’ll be unhappy, and you cannot expect anyone to truly approve of you for that. Whatever approval you do receive will be as fake as the contentment you pretend to harbor.

The approval of others is inconsequential, but if you successfully create a happy life for yourself, you will have your own self-approval, and that is worth something. This self-approval will in turn appear to unlock the approval mechanisms of the universe itself, and it will flood your reality with plenty of validating evidence. When your happiness becomes a true priority, you’ll soon notice a conspiracy of ridiculous abundance, including happy relationships with other happy and attractive people, strong motivation to express yourself creatively, and a lifestyle that yanks you out of bed with a “Wow!”

http://www.stevepavlina.com/blog/2012/08/happiness-first-then-everything-else/

Just for YoU ...

I am not telling you it is going to be easy;
I am telling it is going to be worth it.

No compromise

There is no compromise on the quality of work I deliver regardless of how busy I am.  Something worth doing is worth doing well.

Focus and get things done.

坏习惯

年龄越大， 累积的坏习惯也会相映的多。

现在想起来，有点可怕。 

好像开始讨厌老的我。

要怎样才不会倚老卖老？ 

一号

充满气，充满力，向新希望前进。

不可小观

最近消化不好， 没胃口，常觉得肚子饱饱的。

以为是吃太多奶酪， 吃太辣，吃太多，或太油腻造成的。

原来，都不是。

是心理压力反映在身体上了。

长了这么老，第一次有这领晤。

原来，心身是和一的。

这压力，不可小观。

Self-check 17

If you do not want to learn,
No one can help you!
If you want to learn, 
No one can stop you!

Dr.D

Self-check 16

Be simple not simplistic.

Love it =)

There's nothing wrong with silence.

I'm an early bird =)

Happy Chinese New Year !!

Thank YOu

Cool is the shade of a tree;
Cooler than that is the shade of Parents;
And even cooler still, is the shade of Teachers. 

Stop wandering...

start exploring and establishing... 

经典

Where?

Every where is the same if you carry the same mind with you.

Self-help

No matter what, life goes on.
Sometimes you just have to pick yourself up.

Always uncertain

Science cannot answer all questions; maybe human just have to always live with many uncertainty.

矛盾

We are both the same but different.

Dreaming

Knowing you are thinking means you are doing reflection.
Not knowing you are thinking means you are dreaming.

Don't

... have to compare yourself with others.
How can you compare an orange with an apple???
Every one of us is unique.

Illuminating ...

Love that moment!! 

NEXT

sad but it's true...
To me, at least for now and hopefully forever,
doing Science is still a calling.

It's a choice

Scott: By the way, you don't have to knock every time you enter my room.
LY: Yes, I know I don't have to but I choose to do it.

I don't have to wake up very early on weekends, don't have to travel for 4 hours for my monastery visit, don't have to reply every text message, don't have to drop a major component of my research, don't have to .... yet I choose to do them. 

It's always hard to go against the grain but not when you genuinely choose to do it.

Today...

... I was reminded on this,
" Learning happens everywhere and anytime".

Thought for the Day

It can be very haunting, beautiful but in a sad way, when you're committed to only one thing but unsure whether it will grant you the result that you desire.

Yet, it's hard to give it up.

A strong mind and a gentle heart, I think, are the two things that needed for this kind of journey.

戒“毒“

要用心，用力。

成就

觉得世上最大的成就是把自己管好。 呵。

亲密

Micheal

我们没能选择自己的出身, 却肯定能选择自己想过的生活。
今天, 年轻的Micheal 选择了披上袈裟.
我想, 也是时候我勇敢面对我的选择. 好坏都无悔.
祝福你我, 当然还有Micheal.

Use my power ...

metta.

What a pain...

It's meant to protect me but I'm afraid I'll die of suffocation for wearing it hours.. 

When you get lemons, make lemonade!

Life may throw lemons at us sometimes. For example, what do we do when we meet unpleasant people who say things about us that we do not like to hear? Their words blemish our perceived self-story, which we had painted in our mind’s eye and convinced ourselves to be real. Immediately, our self-justifications come to the fore and our ego defends itself. We feel insulted, hurt and often lash out in anger. When the emotions pass, we are left with remnants of resentment or guilt. Where is Peace in all this? If we truly want to transform ourselves, we should cultivate patience and honesty. Lay down our ego and focus on the learning, not the feeling. In our own quiet time and space, we contemplate and reflect on the comments received. It is from the unpleasant encounters that one truly learns a valuable lesson. So when you get lemons, make lemonade!

DR. 

Silence

... is also a kind of voice another kind of music, only this morning, I realized.

小事

我希望可以永远像现在一样常常为小事而开心， 感动， 满足。
别人不必懂，我也不必大事宣扬。
就让小事将我心添满，保暖至到老到死。

这叫赤子之心， 对吧！

Forever, I believe ...

                                                   ... nothing real but love

Addiction

Dr. Gust de...

Dr. Glen de ...

Lee Yean de

What's yours? Games? FB? 

转念

念一转， 另一个世界就在眼前。

Hidden

It's time to rediscover my capacity to love ... 

冬天

。。。来了， 到处都是这画面。
总让我感觉有点剪不断， 理还乱。
心烦， 更要打起十分精神 了。 加油！

Patience ...

... has its limit. wahahaha. 

迎接六月

其实除了少了这个和那个，生活还算美好的 :)  

Birthday Wish

Better than a hundred years lived unwisely, and indolently,
is one day spent in earnest, energetic effort. Dh vs 112

Instead of wishing myself to have a long life,
I would like to wish myself to have a meaningful life. 

吃亏

生活总不能每次占便宜， 吃亏也是生活的一部分。 

<心术> 

愛爱

愛的基础是友.
首先要成为朋友,才会相爱.
爱还要用心,所以友上面还有个心.
但是, 现在的人都不把心交出来,
所以, 爱没有心了.

<心术>

力量

从心里发出来的正能量；是取之不歇，用之不尽的。
所以请好好照顾你的发电厂； 让她发光， 发亮。

懒了...

... 很久，是时候动起来了。

Stumbling on Happiness

Money cannot buy happiness when you have no money.
How would you buy your happiness if you have enough money?
In other words, what do you think will make you happy?

metta

When there's a connection, never deny it.  ~ Ajahn Anan ~

What's Up

By Four Non-blonde 
25 years of my life and still
I'm trying to get up that great big hill of hope
for a destination
I realized quickly when I knew I should
that the world was made up of this brotherhood of man
for whatever that means
chorus:
'n so I cry sometimes when I'm lying in bed
just to get it all out what's in my head
'n I, I'm feeling a little peculiar
'n so I wake in the morning and I step outside
'n I take a deep breath
'n I get real high
'n I scream from the top of my lungs
what's goin' on
and I say hey-ey-ey... (jodel-di-dodel...)
and I said hey what's going on
and I say hey... etc. (uh! uu-uuhu-huhuuuu...)
I said hey what's going on

and I try, oh my God do I try
I try all the time
in this institution
and I pray, oh my God do I pray
I pray ev'ry single day
for a revolution
chorus: 
25 years of my life and still
I'm trying to get up that great big hill of hope
for a destination

找到了 I have found...

... 不完美的爱。
...  imperfect Love.

Move on

Sometimes, you just know that surrendering is the right thing to do.
By then, don't hesitate. 

Be Courageous

我不同流合污。
Going against the stream. 

Q & A

Hours before the great scientist passed away.

Nurse: You don't sometimes feel like giving up?
Einstein: Only if I have an answer.
Nurse: Does every question have an answer?
Einstein: I don't know but I seek, since there may be an answer to a question.

An inspiring BBC documentary about Albert Einstein.
http://www.youtube.com/watchv=dFPBVHJy9_0&list=PL27B0B103624DCE06&index=5&feature=plpp_video

Times Man of the Century
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Time_100:_The_Most_Important_People_of_the_Century

人之初...

...性本善。

Please don't forget about this.

Just in time...

我们不是追求成功; 我们是追求梦想。

10q, TP.

Freedom

The greatest freedom in life is the freedom of not following your desires.

Resting Sun